New design and layout

First, I've decided to add some design to my blog and I think it looks awesome!  It took me about 2 hours to create it. I also added page links so I didn't have to have everything on the main page, you can click on the link to the left to see the processes.  I'm excited out the new layout.  Do you like it?

Now onto the writing itself :)

Yesterday was a really rough day, I found myself not wanting to be talked to, touched, or even looked at!  I went outside in the 20 degree weather to get some fresh air, for about 45 minutes.  It was COLD!  I later found myself with my iPod on listening to music to drawn out the noises of the day and sitting on the bathroom on the floor.  It was a miserable day!  I wish I could say that this will be my last Christmas without a child, but I can't be certain since I'm not in control.  I can hope and pray, but I won't know what our plans are until the day comes.  It can come the day after our home study is approved, the next month, 6 months, a year, or even longer, one just never knows.  I wish adoption was like a pregnancy, when you start you have 9 months to prepare for your baby and then the baby arrives.  If that were the case, we'd have our baby in March, which would be awesome.
Today has been a little better, I shoveled the ice and snow from our parking space, then went for a drive around the base, picked up mail and went to the grocery store.  Hubby actually sat down and watched Santa Baby 2 with me, I thought the world was coming to an end that he actually watched it with me.  I was happy that he did.  He was probably trying to do anything to put me in a cheerful mood and hoping today was going to be nothing like yesterday.
I'm going to start painting my ceramics this week.  I have a lot to do and they have a lot of detailed work on them that I will need extra time for concentration.  Maybe keeping busy with that will help me remain calm and less stressed.

Waiting on word if the agency in PA received the packet I mailed out on the 20th.  It should have arrived since it was expressed mailed, 3 day express.  On the website, it's not showing arrived though, so I'm a bit worried.  Hopefully they will also be able to get an official copy of our home study to our agency in VA this week.  This week is a wonder of possibilities.