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15 weeks

Yesterday was Xander's 15th week with us!  He's growing so much and is such a joy to have in our lives.  I don't know how I was able to enjoy life without him in it.  I can't imagine life without him.  We had some pretty exciting news back on July 7th.  I've been holding out on putting it on here, but have since decided that's it's okay.  I'd actually wrote a post on the 8th, but kept it in draft format...below.

Amazing!

Written on July 8, 2011:  Have you ever heard the saying that if you adopt you will get pregnant?  Well, that's exactly what happened to us!  I say it's because Alexander has brought so much love and joy into our lives that we were so at ease, no stress, and just really didn't think about it...OK that's not so true...i told hubby that I didn't want to get pregnant so was resistant many days.  I was supposed to get my cycle on Sunday, well Thursday came and still nothing.  I thought it was just from being stressed, I chopped the peeing all the time to my all of a sudden urge to drink 2 liters of water, I had an excuse for it all...all except I was pregnant.  Sure it crossed my mind, but I feared the thought of it honestly.  The babies will only be 11 months apart!  How am I supposed to be pregnant and teach Xander how to walk and everything else he needs to know with a growing belly?  I'll figure it out.  I'm scared.  I'm nervous.  I'm thrilled.  I'm shocked.  I feel totally blessed.  But because we are so early, only 5 weeks, it's still too early to get too excited.  We're cautiously optimistic, just like through our adoption process.  It will work out.
When I decided to take the test, it was a last minute thing and I had to pee bad.  As I was peeing on the stick, it immediately turned positive.  I for sure thought it was going to be negative, just like all the other pregnancy tests in the past, but not this one!  I was shaking and nervous...yet very excited to see it.  I called my sister immediately and told her to get on webcam and I held up the test to show her...she busted out laughing, saying I told you so.  Everyone was telling us that we'd get pregnant after we adopted, but I never imagined it would happen to us.  I wanted to focus on our son and give him all my attention, not have to worry about every little cramp and growing belly over the next 9 months.
How did I tell Nick?  Well, he came home as I was feeding Xander, so my plan already was off.  But, good think little man decided to take a poop.  I went in to change him and put on a bib that I made for him...on it, it said, I'm Going 2 B A Big Brother.  While I was changing him, Nick decides to come keep me company before I put the bib on and asked if it showed up.  I said yes.  He said, darn, maybe next time...LOL.  So after i get the bib on, I take Xander to our room and hand him off to daddy to play with him.  He didn't notice right away...but he did notice a smell.  He said, boy, you smell weird...like a dogs flea collar...LOL.  I'm laughing so hard I'm crying.  He held him in the air like he always does talking to him..still didn't notice the message.  Then he laid him on the bed and saw it, but read it wrong.  He thought it said I'm too young to be a big brother...because i told him I'd gotten my cycle.  So he keep talking to Xander and I finally said, baby, I'm pregnant.  He was blown away.  Me, I was shaking and crying.

So now today...it took about 8 days for me to get really excited and accept this little blessing.  I've now been looking at it as a positive thing because yes, they will only be 11 months apart, but at least they will be close in age and always have a little sidekick to play with.  Xander's going to be a great big brother.  I'm still in shock and worry about every little cramp that I have, but I just tell myself it's the baby growing and making itself at home for the next 8 months.  I have my first appointment on the 29th.  I'm excited, but I'm not sure it will be much of anything more than just paperwork.  I'm hoping to see an ultrasound or at least the heartbeat since I will almost be 8 weeks then.  I've had a lot of nasuea, but not actually throwing up.  I've also been having hot flashes, which I find odd and will ask about at the doctor.  I'm not sure if those are normal during pregnancy.

loves his new ride in the Bumbleride Indie

(I love that it takes up less room in my trunk!)

Have a great day!