Rolling With It: Emotions

I've been full of emotion lately...if it's not from being over tired, it's from the stress of the process of getting back home. I just want to get home in the comfort of my own things, my own car and my own kitchen to cook in. I want Xander to get used to sleeping in his crib, meet his daddy, meet his puppy and get accustomed to living in Germany. I'm little worried about taking him though because when I first moved there last year, I was sick for 6 weeks as soon as I got there.
I really should be sleeping right now because I don't think Xander will sleep well tonight.
So, we spent 3 weeks at my sister's in North Carolina, it was a great time. We went to Atlantic Beach, it was beautiful, celebrated graduations (one for my 4 year old niece and then my sister), my older sister and her family came for a weeks visit, then our parents came for 3 days. It was a great time and I'm glad us sisters could spend time together. The last time we were all together was in 2009.
I came back to VA on Sunday night...in a much nicer hotel this time around, but I'm on the party floor, so it's a bit loud. I signed the placement papers yesterday finally. We had to wait on the putative father registry to clear. Today Xander and I made the 3 hour drive up to DC to apply for the passport to go home, but were turned away. I bawled..I just want to go home. I know i don't love the place, but my stuff is there and we need to settle in there, not a darn hotel. So after we were turned away, I called my sister and cried to her...thanks for listening. After I talked with her, I called the agency then our birth mom. The passport agency says I HAVE to have the birth certificate, plus authorization from the adoption agency. Ok, so now I came up with a new idea. I called the vital records in Richmond and they told me our birth mom can come in and get the record the same day. So, tomorrow, I'm driving LP up to Richmond so we can get this birth certificate. What a mess I'm going through. I then also have to have authorization notarized, I had the consent written up, they just didn't notarize it...it didn't say it had to be done. Oh well...I think we have this figured out now. I'm going to hopefully schedule another passport appointment for Monday because we have our tickets to fly to Germany for the 19th...very soon. I really pray things work out this time around.
I sent LP a bunch of pictures today. I'm excited to see her tomorrow as we always find fun stuff to talk about. It's never awkward or a dull moment.
Here's a few pictures of my little man...he'll be 6 weeks on Saturday already. On Monday he weighed in at 10 pounds and 20 1/4 inches. He's growing...but still so scrawny. He's still rolling over constantly, loves to look at his toys, looks at himself in the mirror, smiles a lot and follows my voice.